Let it snow! :)

haven't been blogging for LONG.

and i'm back (:

if i've blogged few days ago, i may have alot of things to say, and this blog post may be NEVER ENDING.

but now, i have nothing to say about whatever that have happen, around me.

Today, is the day i should go back to the Clinic, but i didn't go.

Don't scold me, don't kill me.

no matter what, i won't be going there ANYMORE, unless the medicine is useless on me.

left with a few tablets left, and if 1 or 2 weeks later, nothing happen, i think there is really something VERY WRONG with me, but i pray that this day DON'T COME.

well.

i had a terrible night yesterday.

HORRIBBLE, TERRIBLE.

it's FAMILY problems i would say.

but not really FAMILT problems, not my parents quarreling, but ME quarreling with my AUNT.

i failed to understand them.

i failed to see their "true" colors.

i failed to see how selfish they were.

i fail to understand the situation, so, am i too late?

devastated.

disappointed.

they. their family. shall now, no longer exist in me.

i failed to see JUSTICE in them.

they are BIASED, in no matter what situation.

i failed to feel their LOVE for the people around them.

all they care is no one, but themselves.

i prayed for them, hoping that nothing will happen to them, puting them more important than my parents, paying more attention to them, but what i saw & witness was a very unpleasant situation.

i have nothing else to say.

i just want to leave this miserable place, HUMANS are scary, unpredictable.

perhaps i just need to learn & understand the way it is.

perhaps God has fallen asleep?

well.

bad things always happen on me, but good luck sometimes knock on my door too.

$$$ reach my pocket yesterday, for closing a FAST DEAL @ YISHUN (:

Closed in less than 5 hours, the fastest ever ( for me ).

earned some money, but not able to spend them.

the money i earned now are for my GETAWAY during school holidays ( the 2 months break ).

i don't really feel like going to Taiwan with my mum, because i fear seeing SO MANY relatives & they speak a language which i don't really understand, unless it's mandarin.

she's gonna stay there for only few weeks if i'm not wrong, because she needs to get back to work.

but i'ld like to stay longer.

not because i like Taiwan or what, i just want to get away from the people here.

like locked up in a JAIL, invisible one, but a powerful one.

mum told me sometime ago to stay with her in Taiwan when i graduate, and leave my dad here ( because they aren't on good terms ), and get married there ( because she say Taiwan guys are better than Singapore guys ).

OH PLEASE.

i was asking myself, will i ever get married?!

if that is the PLAN that will COME TRUE in the future, then, i should have gone to LA SALLE for my FD course!

OH MY GOD.

she told her siblings that she want me to feel comfortable with the place first ( i eavesdrop her talking on phone =X ).

WELL.

there would still be 2 more years till i graduate.

we'll say about it when time comes then.

it's already Wednesday, and tomorrow is THURSDAY.

HAPPY DEEPAVALI TO ALL INDIANS (: