Nurse called me this morning, to ask me to go back to the Clinic.

i was SO WORRIED & SCARED that i couldn't control my mood & i YELLED in class.

OH MY GOD.

Feeling like SO GUILTY now.

SORRY ):

I don't want to go back to the clinic, it just waste my MONEY, just to talk some rubbish and cost me such a bomb!

I lied, saying that i aren't free to go down to the Clinic, and i requested the Doctor to give me a call.

I fear going down again, and i don't want to waste more money.

I pon-ed class.

Sorry, but i really have no mood to stay in class.

I kept thinking what is happening, why the doctor want to see me again, is it because it's something BIG and SCARY?

I don't know.

*struggles*

Went off with MIL & MeiJin.

MIL went home, MeiJin & i went to Far East to shop.

Then went i was about to go home, on the bus, the Doctor finally called!

She said she want to REVIEW MY PROBLEM AGAIN.

NO, PLEASE.

I fear reality!

Don't talk about it please.

she arranged for me to meet her in the clinic next Wednesday afternoon, but i won't go.

I DON'T WANT.

I rather be kept in the dark & enjoy life.

i don't know

i don't know

i really, don't

and now, the problem with my friend's is getting more complicated.

i very very much want to help, and i couldn't stand to see such a BAD GIRL doing that to the POOR BOYFRIEND, i really CANNOT STAND IT.

i know there isn't much i can do, but i have the URGE to do something.

not kill or rape or be an arsonist, but to ...

i don't know how to say it.

i don't want to see my friend sad, and neither do i want to see BITCHES around in school, and where ever i know.

no time , no mood to blog any further.

be back tomorrow night.

withLOVE;
12:08 AM