i am so bored now, so i am blogging again.

i don't know what to do.

wanted to do vb, but some files i couldn't open & the VB on my laptop is mad, and will expire in 27 days' time.

as if i care! By that time it would already be holidays, and NO MORE VB!

i just hope for HOLIDAYS, and hopefully i will spend my entire/most of my holidays at my ah ma's house.

i freaking so much want to LEAVE MY HOUSE u know?

going home is so boring.

but is home is empty, then it is so much better.

sometimes it's good to have human around at home, but sometimes, when they is TOO MANY or even 1 horrible one, it can DRIVE ME CRAZY.

i need to CALM DOWN, so i'm always with my laptop and earphones.

hear no evil, see no evil.

i've planned.

CNY will be straight after holidays, i just hope to be out & away from home.

then after CNY, so holly many weeks of holidays, i shall most probably spend my time at my ah ma's house ( but i don't like that kid in the house, she keeps following me, and if if i bring her to shopping, she will want me to buy toys for her, but i aren't rich! ).

anyway, that kiddy is NOT related to me at all, understand?

she is my aunt's child, but not at all related to me.

i don't hate her, but maybe because she just "COME OUT" too sudden that i felt uncomfortable?

if she is RELATED to me, i would definitely LOVE HER ALOT because i love "NEW" humans in a family/house.

shall spend the rest of my holiday at my ah ma house, then do what i've planned some time ago, and get it started.

i need to do something out of it, i don't want to be "hanging around" like a stray animal.

i just HATE TO STAY AT HOME.

sometimes, i just envy <3's parents.

his parents are SO GOOD to him, really VERY VERY GOOD.

his mother seems nice & LOVE HIM ALOT , but his dad seems scary to me because he is very tall =X

how i wish i had such GREAT parents?

nah. *daydreaming*

maybe, from this, i'll learn WHAT a child really wants? & hopefully i be a GREAT MOTHER?

people always see things from there view & never try to understand others.

they always think what ever they say IS RIGHT & never bother to listen to others.

they always look down on others thinking they are incapable of doing ANYTHING GREAT.

they always expect a lot from you.

because what they CARE is only about THEMSELVES & EXPECT HELL LOT OF CARE IN RETURN?

can someone understand?

i'm SO FREAKING ANNOYED & HAVE HAD ENOUGH ALREADY.

how i wish i can have a freaking STEADY INCOME & CAN STAY SOMEWHERE ELSE, HOPEFULLY THE FURTHER THE BETTER!

I HATE

I HATE

I HATE

I HATE

i just WANT TO LEAVE here ONCE I CAN SET MYSELF FREE, just a few years i suppose.

i have ALWAYS wanted to leave this holly shit place. i just had enough already.

i never love this place.

so familiar yet so many painful memories.

all i need is a NEW beginning, new people, new life, new habits.

i WANT TO forget everything, EVERYTHING, the good & bad.

set me free, please.

withLOVE;
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